AND THEN SHE STARTS AGAIN..

It's been a while since I write my blog and about my life.

I will be honest that life has been fast pacing this past years.

Added to it is when pandemic starts and everyone just confused about what will happen next.

I am here, casually sitting in the room isolating myself from my loved ones because I have COVID symptoms. I had sore throat, fever, chills, headache and pain in the body but I am confident this is not what it looks like because I can still taste and smell the food. It's been 4 days since I got sick and I think today got a little bit better because I don't have high fever unlike yesterday that I got 38.2 temperature at lunch. I am just coughing and having sticky phlegm and a bit dizzy, maybe because of the paracetamol I just took.

Well, I don't really know why I am starting again to write, well maybe, in the past days that I realized that I should have a purpose or if I might as well as dead hahaha nd everything will go to waste. Kidding aside, I just want to let out all my thoughts and I know not everyone will relate on my experience. So starting today, to my fellow bloggers and readers, you like it or not, I will be sharing my personal life, maybe as a journal for me to document also my thoughts and share what I can share, well domain subscription is not cheap so I better use this tool wisely and worthy haha.

While typing right now, I am feeling a little pain on my left knuckles and that won't stop me from sharing my thoughts either. Also, I am on sick leave until Monday since I am mandated by the doctor to do home quarantine for 10 days for me to get better so I think I should be using this time as well to reflect on and to know what do I want in life.

And then it rain, I miss those days when everything is just carefree, when we don't think so much of other things. When it rain, we play under it and don't care about anything. We just let everything flow and life is simpler I think. I know my life as a kid is not pretty much good but I wish if I can go back to those times when I was a kid when my mom used to take care of me when I was a kid. She will cook me some noodles, get timely giving me medicine, she will dump a cloth and clean me up. Life is better with mom right? Now that I am also a mom, I realized all the sacrifice our moms did to us. I miss my mom, i hope she is here to take care of me. 

Then when you become adult, you just realized that the only person that can help you, is only yourself. Take care of yourself mentally, emotionally, and physically. I think that's it for now, I am getting emotional, you know haha. I have lot more to share with you and thoughts that only me knows. Thanks for reading, till' next time. XOXO, ZARRAH